On my way home. Loneliness. Building love castles with the Moon

29th September nite. On my way home, from Dear Dear's house.

i was on the train, in the midst of at least three pairs of couples. There were two pairs at each of my side, and one pair in front of me. Suddenly, i felt a tinge of loneliness. I actually feel 'loneliness' when i am in the midst of crowds, more than when i am alone.

The 14th Dalai Lama made me understood that loneliness is what u deemed it to be. When u feel human equality, when u feel that people around u are just like u, everyone is equal among everyone, u won't feel lonely. This is a rather hard 'concept' to grasp; it's only when i felt lonely, i realised the hidden meaning of it. I'm not lonely anymore. I have so many people around me! We are all equal, as we are all humans...

I was too engrossed in A-mei's vocals in her new album, Star. Did i ever say i love A-mei? Yes, i do!~

I love songs that could express my complex and yet simple feelings anytime. I love listening to those songs, and to actually sing them. I love photograhy too. Photos and songs are the best ways to let one's feelings be exposed, conveyed, and shared at the best times.

Too engrossed in her songs that i couldn't determine 100% that the 'guy' of the couple in front of me was a butch, as I couldn't hear her voice, but it's 99% confirmed. U know the characteristics of a butch. I shan't probed further. But a friend told me that the girlfriends of most 'butches' (omg, is that the correct plural word for 'butch'?) are beautiful! Not in this case though. The gal, however, looked innocent and young. She must be a student who still wears uniform to school. And they were actually wearing a pair of couple watches.

Trust me. I admire all kinds of love. The love i have with Dear Dear, love for parents, love for siblings, love for friends, love for animals, a Chinese who loves a Malay, an American who loves a South African, a butch's love, a gay's love, a lesbian's love...these are the most human nature kind of love. The underlying reason for such a love must be a romantic one.

I don't despise the couple in front of me. In fact, i admire their love towards each other. The courage that this couple has to pursue love has greatly gone beyond mine towards Dear Dear. Singapore is still a conservative society. This is already evidenced in Teo Yi-ling's book, Media Law in Singapore.

Walking home, something bright above the sky caught my drowsy eyes. Ah, the same old mid-autumn Moon was still hanging up there in a state of serenity, waiting for me to go home.

Once again, I felt blessed. My heart was full of hope and pure happiness. Wearing a light smile, i no longer felt worn out. My steps were lighter.

The Moon has given me a perfect and happy ending for the romantic nite home.

When the heart is beautiful, everything else is beautiful.