Last week wasn't a good week at work...too many things happened at the same time. I was sick but before i decided on whether to take medical leave last Tuesday, i was told by my superior, RM, that i better not take medical leave those few days, because we are getting busier as we have accounts reports to prepare for our boss, PF. i din managed to see a doctor in the end. i wanted to on Tuesday, but the clinic was too crowded and i din have the time to wait for my turn.
Luckily for DD's cough syrup which was three-in-one, for cough, flu and sore throat (i had all three u see), and it was a strong one because few moments after consuming the medication, i totally felt weak and wanted to sleep straight away...
Todae is my Chinese birthday, but i was so busy that i din know abt it, until i reached home and mum told me. i encountered some problems at work, and though they may not seem very serious, like life-and-death problems, this is the first time im going through them and i felt quite lost.
i have just celebrated my 24th birthday...im 24, in my mid-twenties...but alas, i feel like i hvnt grown up yet. From the way that i have handled (or couldn't handle), or the attitude that i have portrayed during this tough interim period at work, i feel abit ashamed of myself. I realised that i have somehow lost and my hidden inferior complexity is acting up again...maybe im too simple-minded.
1.5hrs ago when i was in the train on my way home, a rather skinny Malay gal wearing long-sleeve blouse and jeans, had blue-black patches on her hands and feet, which couldn't be covered by her clothes. I was listening to some Chinese songs with sad melodies, while thinking that this gal looked pitiful. Before i knew what has happened, the Chinese lady beside me passed her a packet of tissues. The Malay gal had tears in her eyes. I almost wanted to go over and give her a warming hug, but my shyness got the better of me. In the next moment, i was again, playing with the thought of becoming a counsellor. And then, i realised i couldn't at all, because im too emotional...i might have "collapsed" first...
When i looked at the commuters, i realised once again, that everyone has their own set of unhappy experiences and stories. Maybe as we grow older, we'll have more encounters on the darker side of things, but I choose not to believe that the world is cruel..because im in it, Buddha is in it, my Guru, Garchen Rinpoche is in it, my Lama friends are in it, my family is in it and last but not least, my friends are in it. im optimistic, because i have to be eventually. Life's all about making choices isnt it?
A quote discovered by my friend: -
Realise that everything that happens in life is a teaching, a lesson, a challenge, and an opportunity to grow. A challenge, if seen from a positive angle, is a stepping-stone. However, if seen from a negative angle, will be a stumbling stone. With will power and determination, everything is possible!
ok, i feel like im starting to grow up...well, i have to. (",)
Thanks Rachel, for meeting me todae and giving me valuable advice. I will be heeding that. And really really sorry for making u wait for me for a full hour! Your understanding and big-heartedness is very much appreciated...(",)
Luckily for DD's cough syrup which was three-in-one, for cough, flu and sore throat (i had all three u see), and it was a strong one because few moments after consuming the medication, i totally felt weak and wanted to sleep straight away...
Todae is my Chinese birthday, but i was so busy that i din know abt it, until i reached home and mum told me. i encountered some problems at work, and though they may not seem very serious, like life-and-death problems, this is the first time im going through them and i felt quite lost.
i have just celebrated my 24th birthday...im 24, in my mid-twenties...but alas, i feel like i hvnt grown up yet. From the way that i have handled (or couldn't handle), or the attitude that i have portrayed during this tough interim period at work, i feel abit ashamed of myself. I realised that i have somehow lost and my hidden inferior complexity is acting up again...maybe im too simple-minded.
1.5hrs ago when i was in the train on my way home, a rather skinny Malay gal wearing long-sleeve blouse and jeans, had blue-black patches on her hands and feet, which couldn't be covered by her clothes. I was listening to some Chinese songs with sad melodies, while thinking that this gal looked pitiful. Before i knew what has happened, the Chinese lady beside me passed her a packet of tissues. The Malay gal had tears in her eyes. I almost wanted to go over and give her a warming hug, but my shyness got the better of me. In the next moment, i was again, playing with the thought of becoming a counsellor. And then, i realised i couldn't at all, because im too emotional...i might have "collapsed" first...
When i looked at the commuters, i realised once again, that everyone has their own set of unhappy experiences and stories. Maybe as we grow older, we'll have more encounters on the darker side of things, but I choose not to believe that the world is cruel..because im in it, Buddha is in it, my Guru, Garchen Rinpoche is in it, my Lama friends are in it, my family is in it and last but not least, my friends are in it. im optimistic, because i have to be eventually. Life's all about making choices isnt it?
A quote discovered by my friend: -
Realise that everything that happens in life is a teaching, a lesson, a challenge, and an opportunity to grow. A challenge, if seen from a positive angle, is a stepping-stone. However, if seen from a negative angle, will be a stumbling stone. With will power and determination, everything is possible!
ok, i feel like im starting to grow up...well, i have to. (",)
Thanks Rachel, for meeting me todae and giving me valuable advice. I will be heeding that. And really really sorry for making u wait for me for a full hour! Your understanding and big-heartedness is very much appreciated...(",)
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