work work work...

i dunno..i'm confused..

sometimes i feel like i wanna quit any moment..

sometimes i feel that it's not too bad, at the most i'll struggle for less than a year till mid-Dec.

but sometimes i'm dragging myself to work..i dread going to work..

sometimes i think, 'hey, this job isn't too stressful..in fact, it's not really stressed at all...i'm just assisting the accountant to prepare the financial statements, make payments, project cashflows and so on...there isn't even any deadlines! and the job's rather simple...

but sometimes, upon realising that this is just not my passion, i would feel sick of the job again..

i have that awful feeling, because when i compare this job with my previous two jobs, there are more cons than pros..

i'm not able to speak Chinese at all in office.

my English 'rusted' after not speaking proper English for a rather long time.

i have to do tasks that should not be done by executives. it's a 'bao-ga-liao' job actually. But who doesn't have to do that in this office? it's a very small office, with only 5 of us...of course the Group is BIG. but over here, everyone's doing more than what their work scopes require..even our Director has to oversee the design and renovation of the BIG BOSS' house in Singapore.

this is a hard post to write.. i am pondering if i should even post this up.

because sometimes i'm kinda ok with this job..

but sometimes i feel i wanna give up soon, with mixed feelings of disappointment, sadness...

would u like a 'bao-ga-liao' job doing things which an executive shouldn't be doing, but it's without 'deadline stress', or a job doing the specific things based on your specific talent with certain pressure and tight deadlines?

sometimes there has got to be a balance.

sometimes when u r too stressed and busy, u would wish for some light work.

sometimes when u r too free and doing too much admin work, u would wish for something more constructive, professional and important...and of course, u get the credit of your hard work and efforts..

but over here..............

sometimes, i feel that i dun deserve it.